26

December

Diwa ng Pasko

In a few minutes, Christmas day is over. The caroling, gift buying, wrapping and giving them out to our loved ones and to monitos and monitas will be over. Technically, but aren’t we supposed to continue doing this the whole year round? I ask myself this very same question each year. I also justify it be answering “yes”. But apparently, this doesn’t really happen always.

I am grateful for all my blessings. I am thankful that I am continually blessed in all my needs and perhaps even a bit more. I never forget to share this blessings with my love ones and family members or even relatives.

But sometime, I have a difficulty sharing with some man or woman in the streets who beg for some extra coins from others. I always end up thinking that “I work more than 10 hours every day to earn my living so why shouldn’t these type of people do the same? That way, they don’t need to ask us hardworking lot to spare them some coins”. I feel bad about them sometimes, and hey, justifiably, I also give some of them an euro or two. But I really admit that there are some of these kind that I don’t even blink an eye to help. Especially the ones who look able bodied and young enough to work for their living. I feel ashamed and embarrassed sometimes for not extending a bit of help. Actually, I feel guilty about it, but sometimes one learns to be too unattached and level headed about them.

Ngayong araw na ito, may nasalubong ako sa subway station. Isa mama, medyo mag si singkwenta na siguro yung edad niya. Looking haggard and hungry siya. Naawa ako, kaya nag abot ako ng kaunting barya. Pero nang makalayo na yung mama na tuwang-tuwa naman sa kakaunting barya na na ibahagi ko, merong isang matandang ale na nagtanong sa akin kung bakit ko daw ginawa yun? Kapag daw tino tolerate ang ganung bagay, mamimihasa naman daw ang mga ganitong uri ng tao. Kaya daw lalo silang nagpapa ka tamad kasi may mga tao naman silang nabobola. Hindi daw tama na nag abot ako ng konting barya. Napa hiya ako. Pero, kahit pa, napa bulalas ako sa kanya na Pasko naman at barya lang naman iyong nai abot ko. Kulang nalang gusto ko pang sabihin sana sa kanya na pinag trabahuhan ko naman ang pera na inabot ko at akin yun… hindi yun kanya. Pero hindi na ako nagsalita pa. Ngumiti ako sa kanya, sabay alis na.

Nang medyo maka layo ako ng kaunti, lumingon ako ulit sa kanya, at doon nakita ko na pa-iling-iling ang matanda na nakatayo pa rin sa lugar na pinag iwanan ko sa kanya.

Nalito talaga ako. Tama ba ang matanda at mali nga ba ako na nag abot ako ng barya? Palagay ko, it’s time for me to reflect on things. I should not be bothered by other people. I should just do what I think is right. On the other hand naman, the older woman is of course wiser and therefore probably is correct.


Hay, pasko, pasko
Manatili ka sana dito
Sa puso ng mga tao.

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